i want to rant and rant and rant.
just went to my senior's blog (or should i say future senior?)
http://www.xanga.com/leongcc1124?nextdate=8%2f1%2f2007+8%3a53%3a43.500&direction=p
i refer you to this.
Ok lurh... actually there are so many ppl who share the same experience as i do.
well i would not say that i will miss this class a lot or miss this place a lot. no this is so not me. This is not in me. since ppl say that i 男子气, say that i'm 男人的知心姐姐 (acc to 老聂) or 女人中的大姐大 (大嫂，you were not the 1st. serious.) so seriously, i am not the sentimental kind of person. Sorry for being so cold-blooded... but 这正是我.
But somehow i had to hold back my tears when i recalled my 15 years in Singapore. here is an excerpt of what i said to my dear interviewers:
My 15 yrs in sg was well spent.
nice one. i thought i was not truthful. esp in that sentence. but when i recall again today, i feel that this place has provided me more than i lost.
Sure, i felt that i lost the kind of 学术自由 or 言论自由 that i would have in my motherland. this is true. but i just want to say that i gained so much more.
undynamic=peaceful. this gave me a good study envt. Without such an envt, i would not have gone thus far. i am really grateful for this.
and 纯朴. yes this is how i describe this country and the ppl.
here comes the disgusting part...
I LOVE YOU ALL!!!
毛骨悚然. so emo. siao...
ya. this doesnt sound like me at all. but yes. as i read what other ppl who left their sch earlier just as i did (or am doing, since my official last day is 22 june. but the very IntellegentSchoolPortal, ISP, took me out of the INTELLEGENT system), they mentioned that they did not tresure their time in sch. this is true. but on the other hand, you have to put your studies 1st. so... quite a dilemma right. but then... still... i feel that i am like some lost sheep all of a sudden... a lost sheep rambling rubbish non stop right now...
why lost sheep? cos i am the only person i know (in real life. virtual friends excluded pls...) who is experiencing what i feel now.
this is nuts. they get to stay in the same country throughout but i have to move from one to another and i have to part with my family as well... so they have absolutely no reason to emo at all. I DO. yes. i have the reason (or should i say excuse) to emo. so let me continue.
argh... i dunno what to say all of a sudden. i had so much to say just now. errh...
so anyway, jiayou for everything. sure. i will too. i think i have to jiayou more with my langauge. i have to cut my hwachong slang. this is my upmost priority... oh pls... next time i say duo, nobody will ans shao... and i have to cut the singlish, even though i'm not very into it but it will definately be in me after so many years. this is irritating.
oh yes. my cantonese is super outdated. when i return to hk ppl treat me like mainlander. sorry xy, or anyone else reading this pentatonal blog eg 老聂 or jj... but then... i feel a little looked down with ppl speak to me in mandarin in hk lor... maybe it's the 风气. but suddenly i feel like i'll be naturally be "grouped" with them. dunno why. but i am like some alien from out of nowhere.
rant and rant and rant. ya i said i'm closing down my http://rhapsodyinc.spaces.live.com/ but does not mean that i cannot rant non stop here.
wow i think i can be sicheng le la... zzz...
continue. i'm still flooded with emotions. ji emo. wa. cannot say this in the future either. in mandarin. but in cantonese it's a common phrase. lol...
lost for words. again. oh yes...
i am waiting for something. 期待啊期待.
you guys will know soon. it's gd news for me la but then... not very impt for you. but it's always to share the joy, yea?
rant and rant. and my dishes are not done. xy came today. so sorry i cannot help much for phy... hey i like(d) that topic. but... well... this shows that practise is the key to success. no doubt. but fortunately my integration is still quite imba. just that the qns you asked were not integration but the phrasing of the de qns... wa sian. cannot say imba next time.
argh... rant and rant...
hey i really prefer space to blogger... this is not user friendly. the window is so freaking small... zzz... and this com noob seriously has no idea how to edit the html or whatever when posting anything else besides text... nvm. this is my last time anyway. not like i will be so free in the future anyway. i read that the course is tough.
sigh... i read thing online like "come to CU!"; "come to HKU!"... duo... you ppl duo will come. pls... go get the scholarship that sg provides. and go to some far away place.
i can predict what you ppl will be doing. haha. munyee will be some architect, jialian some human relations thingy, jingrong some math thingy… maybe actuary like me… lol… xiaoying? Hey 没有灵感. Help pls… haha… sorry. Or maybe you go be some taitai la… oh anyway this word is originated from my motherland. Lol…
wow I talk a lot. No. I type a lot. Ok shall end. You guys should be mugging for bt2 now. Not reading this stupid post. And after bt2 don’t slack pls. Still have prelim and A levels…
a levels. I once said to the press that not taking the o levels will be insane. And they phrased it so nicely for me. Haha. I feel like I am mocking at myself.
Well ppl make diff decisions at diff stages. I feel that in these few weeks (after the shocking good news on 17 apr…) I have changed so much in my thinking. Seriously. I thought more than I ever did. I feel like I have matured. I have so much more to say but I just don’t want to distract you guys too much. Haha. I think I really should go publish some 论文 as suggested by some (>3) 网友. I have a lot to say. I have thought so much. I have experienced what so many ppl haven’t. and I really want to share it all with the world.
Ya. I deleted almost all of my blog posts. Cos they were so scattered. I want to display I full fresh me.
Yays. End of a long rant. Haha. Jiayou for A levels!!! Tell me when results day is. I’ll catch you guys on the news!!!