This is C.
Lame shit. I post this on my blog as well.
People below 18 please don't read.
Unhealthy content.
Vulgarities.
Bloody hell...
But don't worry, I always feel better after writing. XD

ECON1001
搏尽。
Actually I have to 搏尽 for everything.
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Come on, the rest of them are studying 24/7.
For me it's a mere 8/7
One third.
I try and try to work even harder, to reach my optimal or even to surpass it.
But face it, I have lost the first few months due to jet lag.
I have no prerequisites whatsoever because I just returned.
Bloody hell.

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Topic for the day:
这个世界是黑色的。
I hate the way things go, the way people act...
Perhaps I am the one who is problematic.
The one who hasn't moved on, the one who hates to move on...
Or have I actually changed without admitting to the fact?
I don't know.
VACUUMCLEANER!!!
ZZZ...
Random spam...
You guys are the best. Thanks for reading and tagging so that I know that I don't exist for nothing. Maybe you only cherish what you have seen worse. So much worse.
It all sucks.
It sucks to be unvalued of.
It sucks to be made use of.
It sucks to be compared to.
It sucks to be left alone.
It sucks even more when people ignore you when you need help most.
Maybe I am emotional. And a little vulgar today. But hey, it just means that I am not as cold-blooded as certain individuals!
Certain individuals... Two words that underestimate the exact number, the exact situation.
Well... I will have to learn to survive with such people in the future I guess.
With such people. Or should I just hide. Be alone. Get used to it. That's what most individuals are doing anyway. They just keep everything to themselves and talk nothing other than the most superficial, for fear that they will be ridden on.
FOR FEAR OF FAILURE.
A bunch of idiots who are unwilling to accept the fact that there cannot be 70+ number ones.
People who excel academically but are stupid right inside.
People who are selfish, self-centred, hard-hearted, cold-hearted, inhumane, ugly, distorted, dark, dull, grotesque, inept, handicapped, disabled. And what have you.
People labelled 尖子 for no reason.
People whom I will be with for the rest of my life.
Or even be transformed into. Which is my biggest fear in fact.
I am hurt. I know how it feels to be hurt by such monsters. So I would prefer not to hurt others.
But then... Here's the dilemma.
It's a dog-eat-dog world.
Grow up, girl.
Aggression. Yes, aggression.
But in preference, in silence.
They did it without skill.
I am certain that I am more skilled in this respect as compared to those beasts.
I can do it.
And I will.